Brain Bubble

Alright, this is more about body, but also about my brain's reaction to stuff about my body. For quite a while, I've been aware that I was hypermobile, and that a number of the weird jumping joint issues I've had on and off since I was a kid were likely related to that. When I first started having these discussions, I concluded that, while I was definitely hypermobile, my hypermobility seemed to be different than a lot of my friends, and I concluded that I probably had a non-standard variant of something. I had some vague hypotheses, but mostly settled with the "definitely hypermobile, but in a weird way" and was fine with that. In recent years, more and more of my friends have been getting diagnosed or self-diagnosing with hEDS, and I started to wonder. A lot of the experiences were shared. A lot of things did make sense. It still felt like I was a little different, but maybe that was just the feeling that your own experiences are always unique. Yesterday, I went...

I have a bit of an unusual take on body positivity. I love my body. I love my body. But I'm more or less neutral on my physical appearance. On the whole, I feel vaguely positive about it, but only very weakly so. There are a few features I quite like. Mostly I don't give it a lot of thought. But I love my body. I love biking 30 miles to give people cookies, or 100 miles to see my partner. I love that I can bench 100 pounds or squat 200. At a simpler level, I love the feeling of warming up on a cold day, or stepping into air conditioning on a hot day. I love the feeling of my partners' hands touching me, and I love being able to use my body to make other people happy. I love tasting a fresh berry that I just picked, or smelling bread that I made with my own hands.  I love my body because of the things that it can do. How it looks is something for other people. Enough people seem happy with that, but it's not my big concern. What I care about is all the things it does for...

Recently, I went to an osteopath to talk about some joint issues and wandering joint pain. I'm hypermobile, and, because of this, my joints are kind of stupid. This means that, frequently, I'm having trouble with some joint. The complication of this, is that it might be my right hip this week, my left ankle the next week, and my left shoulder the week after that. This means that trying to treat the specific one doesn't really make a lot of sense, because it will be something else next week, and the underlying cause isn't going away. I've heard from some people that osteopaths can be really helpful for taking this seriously and thinking about approaches for moving forward. The one I went to was wonderful, took plenty of time with me and took me seriously. I'm working on following up on her recommendations, and that's all great. That's not really what I'm here to talk about. I was a little nervous going into this, because I've always thought about ...